“Tempus fugit…”
It’s already the third Sunday of January and as much as I look forward to all the new things that might happen this 2011, I can’t help but to feel afraid. I am afraid that some things won’t be as good as before. I am afraid that long - ago mistakes will finally have its full-blown effects in the coming months. I am afraid that the personal goals I hope to achieve will still be as unattainable as ever. The past is definitely haunting me, I am afraid.
2010 had its ups and downs – Someone made sure I had my fair share of it. I have woken up each day into the warmth of having my loving family. I finally landed on the course that I have always wanted. I have grown older, yes, even wiser. I also had lost a few of my friends – some to distance, others to fate. I had sleepless nights and dreaded mornings because of my studies. Then, I had a not-so-happy birthday.
“Don’t let fear run your life.”
Last night, I just found myself watching the remaining episodes of Hannah Montana Forever. More than being happy and sad at the same time because of my favorite show, I was also inspired by Robby Ray’s piece of advice. To walk his talk, he got back onstage after ages of not being able to do so. Miley, who became so unsure of her career after letting the “dang secret” out, did not let her father down and also did what she have always loved to do – sing and entertain her fans. Following suit, I told myself with as much conviction as I can muster: “I won’t let fear ruin my year.”
“The only reality is now.”
An article from The Philippine Star reminded me this. I am so afraid of the past and very worried about the future that I am losing track of the important things that are happening now. Needless to say, I have no control over what had happened and what might happen but I have the capability to enjoy what is presently taking place. It is just a matter of being responsible for the decisions I made. It is just a matter of seizing every good opportunity that comes my way. It is just a matter of saying: “I am going to take one day at a time.”
“Always keep a little prayer in your pocket.”
As fear begins to bind me into its wicked spell, His warm embrace woke me up. With God by my side, being afraid and worried seemed to be the most foolish thing to do. Everything that happened was according to His will and all that will transpire is subject to His approval. I should always bear in mind that His plans are far better than mine. My cowardice is nothing compared to His greatness, what’s there to be afraid of? All I need is His sweet whisper, “Keep the faith little one, just keep the faith.”
More than being afraid, I should strive to live a life that will please Him not just this year but for every breathing moment I have.
“I look to the Lord for help at all times and He rescues me from danger. Turn to me Lord and be merciful to me because I am lonely and weak. Relieve me of my worries and save me from all my troubles. Consider my distress and suffering and forgive all my sins.” Psalm 25:15 – 18
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